Do You Really Want This?

There are plenty of reasons to do things.
Fun.  Expectations.  Routine.  Habit.  Fluke.  Because someone told you to.

There are as many reasons as there are things.

But what about the bigger stuff?  Those life-changing goals.
The collation of lots of little actions.  Small moves.  Those things. 

To accomplish something bigger, you need motivation.  Inspiration.  Drive.  A plan.

I’m sitting here, on my comfy new bed, staring at a half-eaten pizza and feeling really disappointed.
What I can’t figure out is whether I’m disappointed because I ate the pizza, or if I ate the pizza because I feel disappointed.  A little from column A & a little from column B, I suspect.

Which begs the question – how much do I want this?  My weight-loss goal.

A lot.  A lot a lot.  But do I want it for me, or because I feel like I should?
That part, I really don’t know.

So, I know I can.
But do I really want it?