I’ve sat down to write this post at least a dozen times, and it’s been impossible to get the words out. It still feels impossible.
So, I’m ripping off the band-aid with what is – at the end of the day – a very lazy post. This is an almost-direct-copy-and-paste from a post I shared with a private group of friends on Facebook.
Hey girls! I have exciting news to share, albeit a little belated.
After being with [my current work] since 2009/2010 Christmas break, I’m moving on to other career challenges.
I’ve accepted a position as Assistant Tax Manager at [an awesome corporate]. It’s a small team with plenty going on, so I’m either going to love it or hate it!
[The Tall One] has been really supportive about the move, too. I haven’t been happy for a while – so this change is a positive step towards happiness, health and world domination.
I start on June 23, right in their busiest period, so I’m taking the opportunity to shoot up to Taupo for the weekend beforehand (back in time for [one very awesome lady’s] bday shindig on Sunday ;))
Also, I’ve just brought a [profanity]-tonne of pink bunting for little bro’s baby shower this weekend so I’m pretty high on life right now.
So that’s where I’ve been.
Hopefully I won’t be too far away now.
You may have seen this one… It’s an email forward that’s been doing the rounds for a couple of years. I received it again from a friend recently, and it arrived at the perfect time – it really helped me put things into perspective.
So, I share it with you: a good analogy for what is important in life.
A professor stood before his philosophy class and had some items in front of him. When the class began, he wordlessly picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golf balls. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.
The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles roll
ed into the open areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.
The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He asked once more if the jar was full.. The students responded with a unanimous ‘yes.’
The professor then produced two Beers from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar effectively filling the empty space between the sand.The students laughed..
‘Now,’ said the professor as the laughter subsided, ‘I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life. The golf balls are the important things—-your family, your children, your health, your friends and your favorite passions—-and if everything else was lost and only they remained, your life would still be full. The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, your house and your car.. The sand is everything else—-the small stuff.
‘If you put the sand into the jar first,’ he continued, ‘there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life.
If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff you will never have room for the things that are important to you.
Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Spend time with your children. Spend time with your parents. Visit with grandparents. Take your spouse out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be time to clean the house and mow the lawn.
Take care of the golf balls first—-the things that really matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.
One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the Beer represented. The professor smiled and said, ‘I’m glad you asked.’ The Beer just shows you that no matter how full your life may seem, there’s always room for a couple of Beers with a friend.
I’ve sat down to write this post a few times, and every time I’ve just stared at the screen blankly. No words. Or rather, I’ve been unable to find them.
I’ve hit an emotional wall.
And I’ve done nothing but eat my feelings for the last couple of weeks.
I’ve been sick – first a stomach bug, then a cold which has continued as a cough that just won’t quit.
Work’s been a massive time-suck as we hit our busy period. And I (perhaps irrationally) feel bullied into taking it all on my shoulders.
Between these two, I’ve struggled to make time for anything else – except food.
We’re talking two chocolate based a day kind of bad. To make it worse, I’ve been hiding it.
I know my eating habits are a problem because I’m ashamed to show them to anyone else.
I am undoing all of my hard work.
Knowing that this is destructive, damaging behaviour only serves to make me feel worse. And – in a vicious cycle that so many of us are familiar with – I eat to make myself feel better.
I’m spiralling downwards and I don’t know how to pull the brakes.
Logically, I know what I want to achieve. That I want to be healthy. That I need to eat well. And that exercising, and eating well, will actually help me feel better.
But… in practice… I just don’t know how to get there.
Have you been here, too?
What did you do to help yourself?
You’ve probably heard of it already – #100happydays is a challenge to look for the good in your everyday life. A photo everyday for 100 days.
A simple, powerful concept.
If you’re interested in following along – or joining in – you can find me on instagram.
Just call me peonut.
(And for those of you more interested in my words than photos, stick with me – life’s a little crazy right now, but I’ll be back with regular posts soon!)
A day is as good as you make it. And I’m making today a good day.
Today is super busy – and I’m looking forward to it. In a weird, crazy, is-she-high?! way. And it’s been 24 hours since my workout.
Here’s hoping I still feel this enthused after my PT session this afternoon…!