The Double-Edged Sword


“Aims!  You look like you’ve lost weight”

It’s possibly the biggest back-handed compliment for anyone losing weight – enthusiastically pointing out they’ve lost weight as though you never expected it to happen (but now it has happened, so it should be announced to the world!).

9 times out of 10 it’s a genuine compliment, but it sets off a mental chain of events…

Yus!  They noticed!


Awww man, does that mean they think I need to lose weight?
They thought I was fat?
Does everyone think I’m fat?
What about that guy over there on the elliptical.

Followed by the mental telling-off…

Don’t do this, you’re being silly.  Overthinking the whole thing.
Pull your head in. 

And finished off with the good old…

Well, I’m never wearing this again. 

It was one of the first things my trainer said when she met me at the gym yesterday, and I was so close to spiralling into the usual mental blubbering.  Mental blubbery.  Blub.  Blub.  Blub.

Instead, though, I stopped.  Smiled.  And thanked her.

This is what we’re working toward.  This is the goal.
It is as much a compliment to her as it is to me (granted I didn’t feel that way on my third set of squats…!)

And I am sooooooo desperate to impress her.

Weight loss I can see, and weight loss others are noticing.
My body is changing, for the better.  And I love it.

I think that makes for a pretty good day, yes?

Pinched and Prodded – My Science Experiment


I felt a little like a lab rat this evening when I met with my trainer and she took all my measurements.

Cath (PT) is awesome, and made the whole thing very fun and lighthearted.  But I felt a bit like a patient in a hospital.  Not quite a woman rushed into the emergency room, but maybe a responsible grown-up getting something checked ‘just in case’.

Thankfully, my measurements weren’t as bad as I thought they were going to be.  Granted, they weren’t great either!

The fattiest part of my body is my triceps.

Apparently it’s one of the most common areas for women.  I can honestly say I’ve never thought about it before.  Butt, yes.  Thighs, yes.  But the backs of my arms?  Nope, can’t say I have.  Of course, your butt and thighs are where you should have your fat, so it’s not counted in quite the same way.

My thighs are equally fat.

Honestly.  We measured.  They’re both 55cm in circumference.
Oh yeah, totally my proudest moment.  (I’m not entirely sure whether that’s sarcasm).


30% of my body is fat.

Based on my discussions with Cath, I want to be getting my total stored energy (fat) under 19kg.  And, realistically, a healthy weight for me is in the realm of 69-70kg.

I should be working hard to make sure I don’t lose any of the lean muscle (calculated as everything that’s not fat) I currently have.  But I don’t necessarily have to work on building it at this stage.  Just the portion of body weight that’s muscle.  In other words, drop my body fat percentage.

I have a programme for when I’m on the gym floor, too.

But I’m saving the details of that for later!

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Have you ever had your measurements taken by a trainer?
What did you think of your experience?
Did it help you focus your energy and training?
Do you think it helped you get results?

Making Routine My Play-Thing

ID-100209643Today was my first session with my new personal trainer – Cath.  With travel and work, it’s taken a little while to get everything ‘locked in’ but it’s all go now.

This morning was a complimentary chat about my goals, what she proposed we do, and a mini-training session to make sure we were comfortable with the style of training and communication.  Five minutes in, I knew Cath was the ideal trainer for me – she was straight up, honest with a ‘no bull’ attitude toward training and reaching goals.

Our mini-training session wasn’t too hard, but it was a good indicator that I’ll be doing workouts that push me.  And I’m definitely feeling the jumping squats in my thighs this evening.  I’m looking forward to it getting worse (then better!).

I’m all signed up for weekly PT sessions from Tuesday evening, and working to a programme on the other days of the week.

Is it weird that I’m this excited about getting in that much pain?

Can’t Put a Price on Health

ID-100202593This evening I took the first step in securing regular personal training sessions at my gym.

I’m looking to focus on weight training, because I feel like cardio and interval training is something I can keep up with on my own.

But when it comes to weights… I think the last bootcamp ruined me.  I want more weights training in my routine, but I honestly don’t feel safe doing free weights on my own.  I’ve never had individualised feedback on my form – only snippets here and there, and that’s to be expected with group training.

Where I was once happy doing machine weights, they now bore the heck out of me.

I’m hoping to get a regular routine locked in soon, with a plan to work on in my other sessions.

Any pointers on what I should be asking of a new trainer?

Why I’m Not Going Back To Boot Camp (& Why It’s Not Quitting)

I’m not going back to boot camp, and I don’t see it as quitting at all.

People I’ve told this too look at me, confused, and ask me why I’m giving up. I’m not giving up. Their judgement – while insulting – is further supporting my decision not to go back. What can I say, I’m stubborn.
So, why not go back…?

  • Because it’s crazy expensive (for my budget). I signed up for six weeks on a huge discount from an online voucher. I can’t keep up with the standard pricing.
  • I seem to hurt myself a lot. I’m not talking being sore after a good workout, but pain that comes from poor form. If I’m going to be doing this sort of exercising, I think it’s probably better for me to have a few sessions one on one to make sure I’m on top of my technique. But that’s even more expensive.
  • Some mornings I’ve woken up terrified at the thought of having to go to boot camp. I’ve made no secret on this blog that I’ve had to deal with anxiety issues and panic attacks over the last couple of years. There have been a couple of instances where my worrying about e session has made me physically ill. Yes, it’s all in my head. But that doesn’t make it any less real.
  • I love the endorphins that flow after the session – endorphins are the best drug in the world. But those endorphins are not unique to those sessions. I can get them from other workouts, too.
  • While motivating for some, pushy trainers do not inspire me. If you’re telling me to try harder when I’m trying my hardest and stilly ailing miserably, I’m going to blame you for my frustration and want to punch you in the face. ‘Want’ because it was likely an upper-body exercise and my arms no longer work.
  • I found no escapism in the loud, constantly varied workouts. Your mind is always on the task at hand. It’s not like running, where I would get lost in my thoughts. That’s not a bad thing – it’s just not what I want all the time.

Don’t get me wrong, the workouts were great – and I found myself doing things I never knew I was capable of doing. I would, without a doubt, recommend the guys at Studio41 to anyone who wants a good workout and results.

If you are even just considering a boot camp type workout I encourage you to jump in and give it a go. You might love it. You might hate it. You’ll never know if you don’t try it!

Okay… Right… So that’s why I’m not going back.
But why is this not quitting…?

Because I’m not giving up on exercise and fitness completely. That would be all sorts of crazy that even I – one of the laziest people I know – would think ridiculous.

No, I’m just changing up my standard workout routine. With spring arriving, the weather is getting better and better – I want to make the most of it this year and beat the pavement in my runners. Getting back into running is something that I’ve wanted to do for a while, but never really got the oomph back for. Well, this is as much oomph as I’m going to get.

And besides, that marathon is not going to run itself.